Adrian brought me to a budget hotel near the club and we checked into a room.
I don't know what came into me that night. Perhaps all these while Sean is right, I am a sinner.
I couldn't stop kissing Adrian the moment we step into the hotel room. His hands are all over me, and my hands just go south on him on its own to remove his Levi's jeans.
The tongue fight continues as we move from the door to the bed. By then Adrian had already removed my demin skirt and his fingers are tapping on my g-spot inside me, while cupping and playing with my aroused breast with his other hand.
"Argh... Ad...." I let out heaps of moans. I missed this feeling of sexual adrenaline high. The lack of sex over this period makes me crave for a good sex even more.
My whole mind went blank as my pussy gets wetter. Adrian has been good with his fingering skills and it didn't take me long to get my first orgasm even before he gets himself inside me.
Alcohol makes your body more sensitive towards all these sensations, no doubts about it.
As long as you're not absolutely drunk and not knowing what you're doing.
I regain a bit of conscious after my first orgasm. Adrian wants to continue fingering me but I stopped him. Without even giving a second thought I remove his briefs and gave him what he deserves.
This isn't the first time I'm blowing him so I know exactly what he wants and likes. "Awww... Aud... Awww..." To be honest, hearing a guy's moan makes me hornier and wants more.
"Aud... Argh..." Adrian suddenly lift my head off his penis and pushed me down to the bed. Lifting my legs apart he began to slide his fully erected dick into my dripping wet pussy.
"Ahhh!" a mixture of pain and high. One thing that most woman should know is that, if you stop having sex for a while your pussy will just tighten itself. A bit.
It didn't take long before Adrian is fully inside me. He started pumping, faster and faster which makes me feel so good. I couldn't stop moaning, just like those Japanese AV porn stars in the movies.
Adrian had his hands playing with my nipples while pumping harder and faster. The adrenaline rush is so fast I had a headache before I got my second orgasm for the night.
I turn over into doggy position for Adrian to slide in. It wasn't hard for him to locate my hairless hole and within minutes he starts pumping me again.
"Argh... Sean... Ahhh..."
I knew I've a made a grave mistake when Adrian stops his actions immediately...
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Friday, November 23, 2012
The First Chapter - 011
"Mum, I'm going out."
"It's 8pm Audrey, where are you going?"
"I'm going to a friend's hens party." I replied while wearing my hot pink Converse sneakers. "She's my ex-colleague when I was working in the hotel. I'll be home late so don't wait for me mum."
Donning a demin skirt which hides a even shorter and tighter one underneath and an oversize top with my bareback tube in it, I pulled my hair back into a ponytail and hurried off before mum could ask me much.
Hot pink sneakers because my bareback tube is from Adidas (I've altered the back of course). I'm doing a sporty look to conceal my frame that has shrunk from the weeks (or months) of malnutrition.
Ever since I've cooped myself at home I've lost quite a fair bit of weight to the extend that some of my clothes don't fit anymore.
It's been 2 days since Adrian called me to inform about his shotgun marriage. Tonight is his bachelor night and I know I can't give it a miss.
"Aud! I have not seen you for so long!"
"Wah Audrey you hide yourself to transform yourself into a model is it? Slim down so much and even sexier than before!"
Sadly, losing weight doesn't mean my boobs will shrink much with the weight loss. In contrast, my bra size went from 36B to a 34C upper. Smaller but even fuller looking.
And it's there to stay all the way till now.
Concealer and makeup does wonders for woman, I must say.
None of them notice the pale hagged me at all. Perhaps the dim lighting inside the club helps too.
"I know you won't disappoint me." Adrian gave me a hug and said this to me the first thing when I reached.
I gave him a wink and stick out my tongue. It still hurts inside me but no, it's time to let go. I must find back my actual self. Not the one who have to forgo everything for the sake of one guy.
Just like the saying goes, never give up a forest for a tree.
That night, I had a lot more than what I usually could. I still know what's happening around me, but my body just can't be controlled by myself entirely.
"Audrey, you're drunk. Come I send you home." Adrian held me out of the club that's closing for the night.
"I don't want I don't want to go home!" I tried to push him away. Somehow, the drunken me just have more strength than usual. This push not only separates me from Adrian, it forces the unstable me to fall onto the ground.
I started crying. Again.
"Why? Why must Sean do this to me!" I hit my bare hands on the ground, not giving a damn care that I'm totally flashing my pink thongs to everyone walking pass in that position.
I guess some people might have sniped me in that terrible state then, since in my memory, I recalled some passerby aiming their camera phones at me.
Adrian tried to hold me up and also to stop those snipers from aiming me this open target.
"Audrey! Stop doing this to yourself."
"Hands off me lah! You're not me how you know how much I am hurt?"
"Sean... I really love you a lot..." I couldn't control anymore and hold on to Adrian. I lay my head on his shoulders and cried profusely.
"Why... I'm not a sinner... I am willing to change everything for you... Why am I not given a chance to explain or defend myself..."
I mumbled a lot. The thing about being a drunkard is that they will keep repeating what they've bottled inside them and 90% of the time they don't remember saying it the next morning when they're sober.
The problem with me that night is that I am drunk, high and out of control for my emotions but I roughly remembered what I mumbled and worst still, I clearly remembered all the actions.
Because, Adrian just hugged me tight and french kissed me all of a sudden while I was mumbling, waking me up from all these childish drunkard behavior.
"Adrian... I don't want to go home."
"It's 8pm Audrey, where are you going?"
"I'm going to a friend's hens party." I replied while wearing my hot pink Converse sneakers. "She's my ex-colleague when I was working in the hotel. I'll be home late so don't wait for me mum."
Donning a demin skirt which hides a even shorter and tighter one underneath and an oversize top with my bareback tube in it, I pulled my hair back into a ponytail and hurried off before mum could ask me much.
Hot pink sneakers because my bareback tube is from Adidas (I've altered the back of course). I'm doing a sporty look to conceal my frame that has shrunk from the weeks (or months) of malnutrition.
Ever since I've cooped myself at home I've lost quite a fair bit of weight to the extend that some of my clothes don't fit anymore.
It's been 2 days since Adrian called me to inform about his shotgun marriage. Tonight is his bachelor night and I know I can't give it a miss.
"Aud! I have not seen you for so long!"
"Wah Audrey you hide yourself to transform yourself into a model is it? Slim down so much and even sexier than before!"
Sadly, losing weight doesn't mean my boobs will shrink much with the weight loss. In contrast, my bra size went from 36B to a 34C upper. Smaller but even fuller looking.
And it's there to stay all the way till now.
Concealer and makeup does wonders for woman, I must say.
None of them notice the pale hagged me at all. Perhaps the dim lighting inside the club helps too.
"I know you won't disappoint me." Adrian gave me a hug and said this to me the first thing when I reached.
I gave him a wink and stick out my tongue. It still hurts inside me but no, it's time to let go. I must find back my actual self. Not the one who have to forgo everything for the sake of one guy.
Just like the saying goes, never give up a forest for a tree.
That night, I had a lot more than what I usually could. I still know what's happening around me, but my body just can't be controlled by myself entirely.
"Audrey, you're drunk. Come I send you home." Adrian held me out of the club that's closing for the night.
"I don't want I don't want to go home!" I tried to push him away. Somehow, the drunken me just have more strength than usual. This push not only separates me from Adrian, it forces the unstable me to fall onto the ground.
I started crying. Again.
"Why? Why must Sean do this to me!" I hit my bare hands on the ground, not giving a damn care that I'm totally flashing my pink thongs to everyone walking pass in that position.
I guess some people might have sniped me in that terrible state then, since in my memory, I recalled some passerby aiming their camera phones at me.
Adrian tried to hold me up and also to stop those snipers from aiming me this open target.
"Audrey! Stop doing this to yourself."
"Hands off me lah! You're not me how you know how much I am hurt?"
"Sean... I really love you a lot..." I couldn't control anymore and hold on to Adrian. I lay my head on his shoulders and cried profusely.
"Why... I'm not a sinner... I am willing to change everything for you... Why am I not given a chance to explain or defend myself..."
I mumbled a lot. The thing about being a drunkard is that they will keep repeating what they've bottled inside them and 90% of the time they don't remember saying it the next morning when they're sober.
The problem with me that night is that I am drunk, high and out of control for my emotions but I roughly remembered what I mumbled and worst still, I clearly remembered all the actions.
Because, Adrian just hugged me tight and french kissed me all of a sudden while I was mumbling, waking me up from all these childish drunkard behavior.
"Adrian... I don't want to go home."
Monday, November 19, 2012
The First Chapter - 010
Continue lying on my bed after Adrian hung up, I look up into the celling.
By accident, my finger pressed on the play button of my Gold Sony Ericsson W880i, and songs started playing without my acknowledgment.
From Sammi Cheng to Elva Hsiao, all these songs played are what the people in the pub called "Audrey's best performance".
Yes other than drinking, I love singing and each time I sang it's a sure bound that I would liven up the atmosphere of the pub.
Recalling how much of a chirpy girl I was and how I always liven up the atmosphere whenever I sing at the pubs, I can't even answer myself why I became someone like this now.
Just then, a song that I've not heard for ages started playing.
"哭 心太苦 羡慕你毫不在乎"
(范晓萱 - 潜意识)
What an appropriate song to describe my feelings towards Sean. I couldn't control my tears any further.
I still have feelings for Sean.
But I know, I can't let him destroy my life forever like this.
I have to get myself back. And be even stronger...
By accident, my finger pressed on the play button of my Gold Sony Ericsson W880i, and songs started playing without my acknowledgment.
From Sammi Cheng to Elva Hsiao, all these songs played are what the people in the pub called "Audrey's best performance".
Yes other than drinking, I love singing and each time I sang it's a sure bound that I would liven up the atmosphere of the pub.
Recalling how much of a chirpy girl I was and how I always liven up the atmosphere whenever I sing at the pubs, I can't even answer myself why I became someone like this now.
Just then, a song that I've not heard for ages started playing.
"哭 心太苦 羡慕你毫不在乎"
(范晓萱 - 潜意识)
What an appropriate song to describe my feelings towards Sean. I couldn't control my tears any further.
I still have feelings for Sean.
But I know, I can't let him destroy my life forever like this.
I have to get myself back. And be even stronger...
Thursday, November 8, 2012
The First Chapter - 009
Can't remember how long I hid in my room after that incident. Can't recall how painful, how heartbroken, how shattered I was after all that. I lied to my parents that the workload is too heavy and not justifiable for me because that company is a small SME and I don't see any career advancement. Plus the bullying from the seniors makes me very stressed to report for work. In order not to let my parents worried, all I could do is to hide in my room and look at the pictures of me and Sean in my phone, tearing silently while on the other hand, telling them that I'm in the room searching for a new job online.
Because both my parents are working then, it was safe to be alone at home and tearing like nobody's business. But when the night falls, that prick in my heart caused me numerous nights of insomnia.
"You sinner"
"You little slut"
That, was how I started having insomnia every year around that time when this incident happen.
When I got myself back again, it was 5 days before my birthday. A call from Adrian.
"Aud, you finally pick up my call. Do you know how worried I was!?"
"……"
"Aud, you there?"
"Yea…" I replied softly, that weeks or months of "dieting" makes me lost a couple of kilos, not to mention stripped away the chirpy me.
"Aud, I'm calling to let you know I can't celebrate your birthday with you this year.. And subsequent years... anymore."
I remained silent. Was my birthday coming? I can't recall. What date was it today?
"…"
"Aud, I… I… I'm... I'm getting married."
Then, I heard a very deep sigh.
"I'll not be having any grand dinner, it'll be just a small buffet at my house after going to the ROM. But I really wish you'll be there. Can you promise me that I'll see you on that day, the chirpy sexy Aud?"
"Aud, please… You're the most wonderful girl I ever had in my life. You've been like my little sister, it hurts me to see you destroying yourself like this over a man who doesn't cherish you."
Tears started flowing down unknowingly. Adrian… who else would have showered me with so much sincere care and concern other than him?
During this time, Adrian is the only one who have contacted me to make sure I'm well, sending me SMSes and ringing up when I didn't reply his messages. Sometimes, he would bring me my favorite food during the day when my parents are not around and make sure I finish them in front of him before leaving my house.
"I will be there, I promised."
Because both my parents are working then, it was safe to be alone at home and tearing like nobody's business. But when the night falls, that prick in my heart caused me numerous nights of insomnia.
"You sinner"
"You little slut"
That, was how I started having insomnia every year around that time when this incident happen.
When I got myself back again, it was 5 days before my birthday. A call from Adrian.
"Aud, you finally pick up my call. Do you know how worried I was!?"
"……"
"Aud, you there?"
"Yea…" I replied softly, that weeks or months of "dieting" makes me lost a couple of kilos, not to mention stripped away the chirpy me.
"Aud, I'm calling to let you know I can't celebrate your birthday with you this year.. And subsequent years... anymore."
I remained silent. Was my birthday coming? I can't recall. What date was it today?
"…"
"Aud, I… I… I'm... I'm getting married."
Then, I heard a very deep sigh.
"I'll not be having any grand dinner, it'll be just a small buffet at my house after going to the ROM. But I really wish you'll be there. Can you promise me that I'll see you on that day, the chirpy sexy Aud?"
"Aud, please… You're the most wonderful girl I ever had in my life. You've been like my little sister, it hurts me to see you destroying yourself like this over a man who doesn't cherish you."
Tears started flowing down unknowingly. Adrian… who else would have showered me with so much sincere care and concern other than him?
During this time, Adrian is the only one who have contacted me to make sure I'm well, sending me SMSes and ringing up when I didn't reply his messages. Sometimes, he would bring me my favorite food during the day when my parents are not around and make sure I finish them in front of him before leaving my house.
"I will be there, I promised."
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